God

Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.
Proverbs 3:5-6 New Living Translation

An anxious heart weighs a man down….
Proverbs 12:25 NIV

Do you know how awesome God is?  I have to share Him and how thankful I am to have a relationship with Him. 

I’ve been struggling.  My husband is sick and gets sicker by the day, I’m worried.  I’m scared.  I’ve never felt the security I feel with Mr. Wonderful.  I’ve never felt more protected, loved or appreciated.  I’m spoiled, never been spoiled before.  I’m taken care of which is new for me, I’m usually the one taking care of someone else.  We should get test results tomorrow, did I mention I’m scared?

You see I love Mr. Wonderful and I love God. 

When I get in a valley I seem to hurt more about my relationship with my maternal unit, or should I say lack there of.  It was with this heavy heart that I went to church last night and God couldn’t have spoken any clearer to me if He had sit down and tapped me on the shoulder.  Isn’t that awesome?

Today I spent the day crying, feeling sorry for myself.  I can honestly say in a near panic.  I told God over and over that Mr. Wonderful has to be ok.  I couldn’t handle anything being wrong with him.  I put in a Joyce Meyer tape, she spoke to me.  Wait, God spoke to me he just used Joyce.  Isn’t that awesome?

The house got quiet tonight, Mr. Wonderful and The Baby Girl are in bed.  I decided to pay some bills, instead I found a card from one of my closest friends.  I wonder if it came today or if it’s been laying on my counter buried in unopened mail.  I just know I needed it right now and there it was.  Thanks friend!  I have to share some of what it said, I hope it makes someone reading my blog to lift someone else up, we all need it.

As I was listening to the message Sunday morning I thought of Baby James.  How innocent, pure and sweet.  I couldn’t list things about his character, but I thought of yours.  How much you have grown.  The changes you have made in your life.  I also don’t know much about Carl’s character before Baby James was born but I know he has a huge heart and would do anything for his family and friends. 

Who do you need to lift up?  Don’t put it off do it right now.

That beautiful card reminded me that I can get through ANYTHING.  I will put my big girl panties on tomorrow and face whatever I have to face with strength.  The strength that comes from faith. 

I said the other day that I want to cling to God in good times and bad, I just didn’t know how quickly I would have to live those words. 

Mr. Wonderful is sick, it is what it is.  We will take it one test at a time.  We will do it together.  It’ll be me, Mr. Wonderful and God.  Whether it’s something that is a bump in the road or a mountain we’ll face it with faith.