There is little difference in people, but that little difference makes a big difference. That little difference is attitude. The big difference is whether it is positive or negative. – W. Clement Stone
I just spent two days at a great conference. I listened, I took notes and I processed, now to put it all into action. Oh wait I won’t be trying to put it all into action because after all where would the balance be.
I left for the conference with a heavy and confused heart, so many people around me hurting and everyone looking out for themselves and not the whole picture. I’d like to say not looking out for the whole family, but over the last few days I’ve come to the conclusion it’s not one family. Sad, but true. I still don’t know what to do with that conclusion, but I know that the first step is coming up with the plan is acceptance.
I am accepting that as adults some of us have “gotten over” more than others. I am accepting that when people don’t want to hear “the rest of the story” they can turn people off and bury their heads. I am accepting that my heart hurts and that as long as I let other people’s actions influence my thinking I am going to continue to hurt. I am accepting that people don’t always know how to be the person you need or want them to be. I am accepting that some people want to feel sorry for themselves and you can’t change that. I am accepting that I am a survivor and I can’t let things I can’t control cause me any more hurt.
I have decided to love people in spite of their faults. I have decided to forgive even if I don’t think “they deserve it”. I have decided to give myself a “time out” and not try to fix things. I have decided not to let myself be hurt by other people’s behavior and to just continue to do what is right.
I am going to journal my feelings, spend time in my craft room, read great books, listen to great music, drink good wine and spend time and energy on people who appreciate the good in life and I will not feel guilty for not allowing myself to be sucked in.
I am making a commitment to blog, I am motivated by a baby shower I am working on. As my cousin Belinda said today, “This train has left the station without a caboose.”
We have completed the invitations, I will give details and links to the Etsy shop later.
Tomorrow night we keep the train on the tracks and complete our glasses.
I don’t know if this would have all come together so easily without Pinterest. You can follow my boards at Michelle Christian Chasteen.
I said the other day this shower will be like Christmas, over in a blink of an eye.
I am now trying to figure out a cute idea for our pens, suggestions welcome.
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I can remember when each day I was pondering what to write about, which adult child to piss off by writing about their lives, what teenage temper tantrum would make my mothering skills sound almost “normal” or what project I was going to get Mr. Wonderful involved in…..well HIVES AND MENOPAUSE have taken over my life so now days I google hives, Urticaria, allergist, itching, stress……not quite as much fun.
I am getting involved LifeCenter here in Cincinnati, during my hiatus from blogging my sister, Marsha passed away. As a family we found a lot of peace in Marsha’s decision to be an organ donor.
I have decided that instead of talking about hives, hormones, death, grief and organ donation I’d start new blogs for those topics….I’ll share more information about that soon. I do want to ask if you are a reader and you aren’t an organ donor please register, I have set a goal of getting 100 donors in my sister’s memory….I have three so far. Just leave me a comment here or an email at firstname.lastname@example.org.
Just wanted everyone to know I’m alive with a bunch of “stuff” going on, but have promised myself at least one blog post a week….blogging always made me feel good and right now I need something in that department.
The last couple of months have been some of the toughest of my life. I’m not going to go into great detail, but I am going to say people sure can be disappointing. I’ve tried so hard to give people the benefit of the doubt and love them unconditionally, it’s growing harder day by day.
I’ve learned that I can survive ANYTHING, I am stronger then I ever dreamed and I love my kids with everything I am.
I may not be “the best mom”, I’ve even wondered recently what I’ve done right. I still haven’t figured out the answer, but I do know I’ve done the best that I was capable of doing at that very minute. Do I have regrets? Is the sky blue? Would I like a “do over”, you betcha.
I have actually sit in the dark this week reflecting on motherhood and laughed out loud at the irony. I have four children, three here on earth. I have been a different mom to each of them for many different reasons and I am pretty sure the one I disappointed and let down the most is at this time the biggest blessing I have. Will that change, I sure hope so. Wait I want that to change, yeap I do. I want to have three children who appreciate me, love me in spite of my screw ups, and check in every now and then. Right now that just isn’t my reality and I’m not sure how to let go of the hurt, the anger and the disappointment.
I appreciate my first born and am pretty sure I don’t tell her often enough. I happen to know she is a reader of the old blog and I hope this post put a smile on her face. Love you beautiful girl! (We need a new picture ASAP this one was taken prior to a 30 lb. weight loss…another example of a Mother’s Love, this is awful of me and adorable of her….but then I don’t think she has ever taken a bad picture…..as beautiful on the inside as she is on the outside…..)