This weekend was a productive weekend. I haven’t had many of those lately, but that is going to change. I have been in a funk and I’ve known it; I just didn’t know how to get out of it. I wasn’t feeling creative, I wasn’t feeling like me. This weekend I decided enough was enough. I did massive organizing and I spent some time with Mr. Wonderful. I love that guy!
I loved church yesterday, The Dills were there and they touched my heart and even bigger they touched My Baby Girl’s heart. I sit next to her in that pew yesterday and just thanked God for her. I think about the person she could be, she could feel sorry for herself, she could be angry….she isn’t. She has faith that a lot of adults are still searching for, she has a heart that is so loving and kind, she is an old soul.
The Baby Girl sent me a text Friday night, “Logan broke up with me, I’ll give you details later.” I called her later and asked her if she was upset and she said, “Nope.” As I was driving home I started thinking about her and how much heartbreak she has had in her young life and it pissed me off. Yeap, I said it. It pissed me off. She is suppose to be experiencing “boyfriend heartbreak” it’s called life. She isn’t suppose to experience the other heartache she has had, how many 11 year old girls have had to deal with heartbreak from not one but two grandmothers, a father, and an aunt? I watched her in church yesterday praising God and that’s when it “hit me”. She doesn’t think about what she doesn’t have, she thinks about what she does have. I need to do the same for her and for myself.
I am blessed to have three healthy children, a wonderful husband, not one but two jobs that I love, the best friends I’ve ever had in my life, an extended family that loves me and supports me, faith that carries me thru anything and everything.
We will celebrate The Baby Girl’s birthday this weekend and we will have so much fun. I know that this child will be ok, I will make sure of it. I will love her enough for a mom and a dad, I will protect her from toxic people even if they happen to be her grandmothers, and I’ll make sure she is always the confident, loving, hard headed young lady that she is.
Thanks Baby Girl for always being a witness for Christ and reminding me that life is about what we do and not what we don’t have. I love you!!