I can’t figure out what I am feeling, that’s odd for me I’m usually pretty clear on how I feel about this or that. Tonight someone lied to me, I know they don’t feel like they lied, but they did. It’s an ongoing issue that centers around a never ending circus and I just don’t know how I feel about it.
I’ve always felt if something is important enough to lie about it should be important enough to fight about. Why lie?
Tonight brought up a lot of old anger for me, I’ve bended as far as I think I can bend. I think at some time you just have to admit that beating a dead horse gets you nowhere.
Tonight I’m reminded that I can’t change anyone else, I don’t even want to change anyone else. I can’t make anyone have the same hopes, dreams, ideas or beliefs that I have. I just have to decide how much I can “live with”.
I’m hurt, angry, confused, frustrated, and just plain tired. Tired of people treating me like crap and getting away with it. Tired of turning the other cheek and tired of feeling like I’m being taken advantage of.
I think one conclusion I came to today is once a liar always a liar, the easiness of the lie is what bothered me. I just wonder how many other “lies” are being told. Just amazing!