Comfort Zone

I stretched my comfort zone today, the “fixer” in me didn’t try to fix.  It felt so STRANGE, I was suppose to be someplace at 8:30 to support a friend and I just couldn’t do it.  I am 100% sure that had the appointment been later in the day I would have caved.

In the last week I have gone down a road of CRAP, yes I said it CRAP.  I have helped a friend thru her mother’s sudden totally out of the blue death, another friend being diagnosed with cancer, another friend accepting the consequences of really bad behavior and I’ve done it all while anticipating Baby James’ 5th birthday oh yeah and training for a 5K….ok walking two days and researching training for a 5K.

I was disappointed by someone else’s behavior this weekend and just had to focus on the people that did care and not the one’s who don’t.  I’ve decided that this year will be the last year I ask anyone to celebrate Baby James’ birthday, next year I will be going away for his birthday with Mr. Wonderful and The Baby Girl……I’ve had enough disappointment and tired of trying to get people to be different then who they are. 

My question is why can’t life just be simple?  I can’t even blog tonight because I’m so tired of people not being responsible and then acting like they are that I just want to scream.  If I hear the word ADULT one more time from people that have no friggin’ idea what being an adult is I’m going to scream.  I wish I could just move far far away and only worry about myself, I’m getting better and better at just setting boundaries and not letting my happiness depend on other people, it feels good!

I have had a couple of job offers out of state they are looking better and better.

For the record I told someone earlier this week that I was tired of people whining about their “problems” when people have real problems, I’m going to take my own advice and just say it loud and proud if I bother certain people so much that my showing concern for a potential serious accident causes them to flip out maybe the problem is them and not me.  If the situation didn’t make me so sad I would probably laugh, I would have done anything to have someone care about me when I was struggling and finding my way, but obviously not everyone feels that way…oh wait though when other people don’t care they complain about that……STRANGE!

Nobody can hurt me without my permission.

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About Michelle

I started my blog as a way to connect with other paper crafters and of course it has gone a totally different direction. I've been able to share my experience as a mother, my hurt and disappointments over not having a relationship with my maternal unit, my walk with God and how knowing Him has changed me and continues to help me grow into the person I strive to be......
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