“The first time someone shows you who they are, believe them.” Maya Angelou
I love Facebook, it keeps me connected to people I care about….old and new friends, family members, co-workers etc. I didn’t think there was anything that could ever change that….boy was I wrong. Last Thursday my Facebook experience came crashing around me. I had recently started seeing a family member show up on other people’s pages and it was irking me, I didn’t want to see her. I didn’t know what to do about it and each time I would see her as a mutual friend it would make me angry, I work hard to avoid being angry. I work hard to accept things for what they are….these feelings were making me think about not participating in Facebook. I then found out that my sister and I had a mutual friend and possibly more coming, my heart hurt. My sister is not part of my life, took lots of counseling to accept that and now poof there she is as a mutual friend on Facebook, I cried. I cried for hours, the hurt, the anger it was all there. I knew then that I couldn’t continue to stay on Facebook I decided I would spend this weekend on Facebook and then I would deactivate my page. I cried some more and then did what I should have been doing all along I started to pray, I didn’t pray about Facebook I prayed about the hurt, I prayed about the unfairness of the situation, I prayed that God wouldn’t allow me start my old ugly behavior and I prayed and I prayed and I prayed.
Yesterday I decided to figure out how to deactivate my Facebook and instead I learned you can “BLOCK” people on Facebook. Get out of here, are you serious? Yeap, I promise….it’s easy. You go to Setting, then Privacy Settings, Block List, type in the name of the person who you don’t want to see on Facebook and then just sit back and cry some more. It’s done! I have my Facebook experience back, I don’t see these two family members on anyone’s Facebook, I don’t even find them if I search for them on Facebook….they don’t exist….I have to say I wish it was that easy to get my sister out of my heart.
This experience reminded me how far I’ve come, how a hurt that I thought would never heal has to some degree. I have accepted that I don’t have the family I should have BUT I have something BETTER. I have unconditional love which I’ve never known, I have drama free family life and I have sisters that although maybe not blood related I love. I shared the blocking on Facebook with them before I shared it with “Blog World”. What are you waiting for get to blocking.