It’s been four days since I refreshed a woman’s blog for hours “living” her birth experience with her, reliving my sweet Baby James’ birth and death. I wanted her not to forget to give April Rose a bath, I had an epidural and couldn’t get out of bed so I didn’t get to give Baby James his one and only bath. I was hopeful she would get a great family picture of her, “D” and April Rose, we didn’t accomplish that task with Baby James.
I prayed that “B” was able to look into April Rose’s eyes and see into her soul, my sweet baby James never opened his eyes. I wanted “B” to get the perfect prints of her little girls hands and feet, I cherish James’.
I cried myself to sleep Sunday night and I wondered when I woke up Monday would I discover that April Rose was in heaven with Baby James.
I don’t regret any of the time I spent on praying for “B”, “D” or April Rose, I have continued to pray over and over for this woman who is so broken that she “invented” this huge lie. It hurts that she sought out women who were hurting and vulnerable to “follow” her blog. I want to give God the glory though, I clung to him Sunday like I hadn’t in a very long time, I’ve sought his guidance daily even hourly this week. I hope “B” gets the help she desperately needs and if she ever finds my blog I hope she emails me, I would like to pray with her and encourage her. My email address is firstname.lastname@example.org.
Remember pregnancy is a gift, a healthy baby is a miracle and pray for “B”.
Here is an interview done by a Chicago paper with “B”.
i love your heart in this issue. it is so right before God, and that is what counts in the end. Thank you for that reminder. Thank you for your words. i never read any of the April Rose blog, but i have gotten the news through other blogs i follow. i pray that you found more healing yourself through the praying you did for this “baby” and “mother”. (((hugs)))