Updated with information about April Rose Scam……..see below.
I do not want The Baby Girl to grow up. I want her to always think “I’m cool.” I want her to always need help with homework. I want her to ask at least once a week if I will snuggle with her before she goes to sleep. I don’t want her to wear make-up, shave her legs or ever have a boyfriend. I want her to get up on Sundays ready to go to church. I want to be able to do her shopping for her. I will be so sad when I become “Mom” instead of “Mommy”. In two days Fourth Grade will come to an end, where does the time go?
As I was typing this I was watching Nancy Grace and yet another mother claiming her child is dead because she made bad choices. Seriously? I’m not perfect and was even less perfect with The First Born and Mr. Perfect, but I would protect my kids against anyone or anything.
I’ve been reading a blog for months that I hope you will stop by. I have prayed for April Rose and her parents so many times. April was born yesterday, and it seems that a lot of people have left insane messages on the blog so the blog has been taken down. Who can blame them? What is wrong with this world, if you don’t agree with someone’s decision that’s ok, being abusive and acting crazy really not ok. I am editing to say that maybe I’ve been fooled, maybe this is a hoax. I still say pray for these folks, if this is all a hoax they need prayer more then ever. I found a couple of blogs today that have me thinking it’s a hoax. Here is Blog 1, Here is Blog 2, and Blog 3. As a mother who had to make the gut wrenching decision of whether to continue with a pregnancy that had been deemed fatal, I’m pissed. Yes I said pissed. I regret my decision not to carry Baby James to term, I’ll always regret that decision. I connected with “B”, I was her “cheerleader”, her prayer partner, her sister in Christ. I have to believe that “she” or “he” because God knows who this blog was written by has got to be sick so I continue to pray. I pray for healing for the “blog writer”, I pray for peace for other Moms like me who feel betrayed and have relived their own experience while following this blog. When I read the updates of her birth on Sunday I literally relived the 2 1/2 days I was in labor and the beautiful 52 minutes we spent with Baby James. Shame on these people. Did I mention I’m pissed? I really hope this is all some crazy misunderstanding, but I’ve pretty much lost hope that we’ll ever know at this point.
This is turning out to be a very random post, oh well that’s ok it’s my blog. I have the right to be random right? I’ve really been feeling pretty yuck lately. I always know when things aren’t right with me I sleep a lot.
I went against my gut tonight and watched Jon & Kate Plus 8, it was the 100th episode. I am happy to report it was not as depressing as two weeks ago.
This summer The Baby Girl is not going to Daycare full-time. She is going to do a few weeks of fun camps, but for most of the summer her siblings are going to “watch” her. Yeah right, she will be “watching” them. I told her I would find fun activities for her, today I bought her a Suduko game for her laptop, she thinks it’s hard. I also found the coolest website that gives writing prompts, she is looking forward to this idea.
I am struggling with behavior from others, I am trying to remind myself that I only have control over my own actions. I can only be responsible for myself. I had to pray really hard this week not to revert to my old familiar behavior with a situation. God is good, I bit my tongue.
Alright enough for one night, The Baby Girl just made us popcorn. She loves her Mommy, I wonder how long that will last?