Ok, today is my official last day of work. Whew. What an emotional rollercoaster this last month has been. I can’t remember the last time that a decision caused so much inner turmoil for me. I know I made the right decision I will just really miss some of the people I have grown to not only like but trust. Trust doesn’t come easy for me for numerous reasons and this week I was reminded just how hard it is to find people to trust. People who really deserve trust.
I started the day really early, cleaned my house, made meatballs put them in the crock pot, took a scrapbook class, dropped off a birthday gift, made cards with Blaise, went for an annual exam, and went to the grocery store. If we take a little closer look the day really went like this. I got up really early because of a text message I got at 10:30 last night that made me want to rip someone’s head off, I cleaned up after a bunch of other people who are totally capable of cleaning up after themselves, I made meatballs put them in the crock pot and left the crock pot on high (explains the spaghetti sauce on my ceiling), waited for an hour for a scrapbook class and had a woman sitting beside me who had never scrapbooked but thought taking a fast moving make n take was a good idea, all of the above made me late getting to Blaise’s which meant I was rushed, and then the bad day started.
Hearing the words, “We are going to have to do a biopsy and I would like to do it within the next week.” Yeap bad day. I’m sure it’s nothing, and so far I have avoided WebMD. I realized today I have not been back to the OB/GYN office since my check up after Baby James’ so yes I was almost four years over due for an annual exam. Of course now I’m convinced something is wrong, and it’s my fault because I didn’t do what I was suppose to do.
I am vowing I am going to turn this over to God. I go for the biopsy and ultrasound next Thursday and until then everytime I panic I will think of the following.
John 16:33 I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. In the world you have trouble and suffering; but have courage, I have conquered (overcome) the world.
So although stressful and emotional I still think overall I had a good week. I can’t wait to read all the post over at The Inspired Room that are linked for The Beautiful Life series.