Flowers!

My favorite flowers are daisies.  I love them and so does The First Born.  I’d rather have a bouqet of daisies then roses any day.  I can be having a horrible day and buy myself a bouqet of daisies and they change my whole attitude, it works twice as much if Mr. Wonderful buys them.  What is your favorite flower?

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 Today is one of those days that I wish I could just wave a magic wand and take the hurt away from “a friend”.  I say friend and yet I’ve never met “my friend”, she’s a blog friend.  She’s a mother who will wake up tomorrow and her heart will hurt, a milestone will be upon her that no mother should ever know.  The one year anniversary of her sweet little girl’s death.  It makes my heart hurt.  I don’t know if Sumi will even read this, but I hope anyone reading here will go over to her blog and show her some love.

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I think of Ecclesiastes 7:3 today. 

Sorrow is better than laughter: for by the sadness of the countenance the heart is made better. 

When I studied this today and prayed for Sumi I had peace.  Today I hope Sumi let’s herself “hurt”, I hope she cries when she wants to cry, talks about Jenna when she wants to talk, writes about Jenna, I hope Sumi yells if she wants to yell.  I prayed today that Sumi will not put on a happy face, but will let herself “feel” the hurt today.  At some point today I’m sure a smile will cross her face as she thinks about her little Muffin, but I hope if she needs to be sad and hurt she allows herself.  That’s an odd thing to pray for someone unless you’ve walked in “our shoes”. 

I rarely am selfish, but February 28th for the past three years I have been selfish and I’m pretty sure that every February 28th for the rest of my time on earth I’ll be selfish.  I hope Sumi finds some of that selfishness today and spends some time just being Jenna’s Momma!

So today Sumi I’m throwing a rose your direction, huge hugs from one broken hearted momma to another!  I pictue that beautiful little girly girl dancing in a field of daisies surronded by angels!

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About Michelle

I started my blog as a way to connect with other paper crafters and of course it has gone a totally different direction. I've been able to share my experience as a mother, my hurt and disappointments over not having a relationship with my maternal unit, my walk with God and how knowing Him has changed me and continues to help me grow into the person I strive to be......
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One Response to Flowers!

  1. sumijoti says:

    Oh Michelle, thank you – I have been too busy to read many blogs and just found this post tonight.

    In a way I have still been too busy to just get sad. And part of me wants to just. be. sad. Not in a woe-is-me kind of way, but in a remembering-Jenna kind of way. I don’t know if that made any kind of sense at all. 🙂

    I appreciate your prayers and support soooooo much. Hugs back at you…

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