I admit today when Carl tried to talk me into sleeping in and snuggling with him I considered it. The temperature outside was below zero and staying in my warm bed tempted me. It didn’t take long for me to remember the stress of the last couple of weeks and the time with God that I really needed today. We got up got ourselves ready and off to church we went. I’m not sure why it still surprises me when a sermon hits me right between the eyes but today was one of those days. Pastor Elliott preached on taking “the right road” he planned his sermon around Proverbs 16:25 and it was a great sermon, but as I often do I let my eyes skim around the chapter and I found Proverbs 16:7
Many of you reading my blog know this hit me right in the ole gut. I have copied this down on a post it note it’s hanging in my scrapbook room and I have one for my office at work. I always wonder what God wants us to learn when he allows us to be hurt and I guess someday we’ll all know the answer, for now I just try to become a better person and learn not only from my mistakes but from the mistakes I see others make. I want to be a great wife, a loving mother, a supportive sister, a caring daughter, a understanding friend and a good person. To the people who will allow me to be these things I can only say, “Thank you.” and to the people who make it impossible for me to be a part of your lives, I pray for you and I’m learning day by day it’s your loss not mine.
It is totally “their” loss. You also make me stop and think. Why am I so “co-dependent.? I hate that word. I have been called that by more than one person, including myself, but it always makes me wonder – WHY? Doesn’t everbody want the ones they love to be happy and successful and loved and appreciated? I want all of those things for myself too, but I all too often cry for someone else to be happy too. I love my sister more now that I ever have but for some reason she doesn’t love herself. She doesn’t love herself enough to want to be happy. I find myself trying for the both of us but it’s so hard when you are the only one trying some days. AHHHHH!!
It is totally “their” loss.
What a GREAT blog entry!! Thanks for sharing your life with us! 🙂