Dear Casey Anthony

Below is a letter I will be mailing on my way home to Casey Anthony. 

Dear Casey-

When thinking about writing this letter to you my emotions were like a roller coaster.  Why write a letter to a complete stranger sitting in jail?  Why care enough about a little girl that I’ve never met to beg her mother to tell the truth?  I can’t answer those questions, I just know it was put on my heart day after day and I decided to just do it.

Who is this stranger writing to you?  I’m Michelle, mother to four, wife to one, daughter to 4 (step parents), sister to six, aunt to 20 (I’m afraid I forgot someone when counting this up), friend to many, loyal servant to One (the Good Lord above).  I was a single mom for many many years and made countless mistakes, some bigger than others.  My adult children are almost 21 and 18, my youngest here on earth is 9 and I have an infant son in heaven.  I could have been such a better mother to my oldest children, but my priorities were not what they should be.  I was young, my ex husband walked off and left me with an infant and a two year old and for a short time I think I had a mini-breakdown.  I was heart broken, overwhelmed, angry and stayed pissed at the whole world for a long time.  With that said I DO NOT judge you for any of your behavior. 

Before I go to bed each night I pray to God to soften your heart and let you tell whatever you know about Caylee.  Where is she?  What happened to her?  Why it happened?  How it happened?  Casey, I believe something happened to Caylee that was an accident.  I see the love you had/have for Caylee and I don’t believe you purposely did ANYTHING to hurt Cayley, but I believe an accident happened. 

Your family loves you.  What a blessing.  I have a mother that could give two hoots about me or my children and I wonder if you know what a blessing it is to have parents and a brother who love you.  They are going to love you regardless, but have you thought about their health?  I worry about both of them dropping over dead from the stress this has put upon them.  Your brother Lee, what a cutie.  Don’t make decisions that you can’t undo.  Tell your family the truth, let them help you. 

I dream about Caylee, do you? 

Here is the prayer that I pray daily.

“Dear Lord, only you know what is in our hearts and you know that I have Caylee and the entire Anthony Family on my heart so heavy.  Lord please wrap your arms around Casey Anthony and let her know you will make whatever has happened to Caylee bearable.  Lord make her know you love her and you forgive her and as long as she has your love and forgiveness she can get through anything.  Heavenly Father, I can not imagine the pain and heartache of George, Cindy and Lee lift some of that pain, give them peace.  Remind them how much Caylee loved them and the great memories they have of her.  Lord please take the guilt away from this family, the should of, would of, could of thoughts they have get rid of them.  I ask all of this in your name and stand on faith that this will work out in your time not mine.”

I end this letter with begging you to be honest, pray for forgiveness and give your parents some peace.  I pray for you daily and will continue to.

In God’s Love,

Michelle

Time Marches On

OK, enough with my obsession with Caylee Anthony.  I need to get a grip.

I was reminded today that I haven’t been updating my blog on a regular basis.  I am always amazed when someone makes this comment, I’m still surprised at how many visits I’ve been getting lately.

Let’s see, what has been going on.

Both of my “grown children” are living on their own.  This breaks my heart and also makes me proud.  I raised both of them for the most part by myself, good or bad I take credit.  I have to admit knowing what I know now I would have involved “the ex” a lot less.  Being the “mature one” cost me greatly, but my kids will both respect me for the choices I made when “they” both grow up. 

Church Sunday, sang a song about being an “overcomer”.  Was it an accident that this song was sung on a Sunday when I held a sweet little infant and actually enjoyed it?  I think not.  Baby James was born and died three years ago and for the first time since then I enjoyed a newborn.  What an awesome feeling.  I knew I had loving friends watching me, seeing me love every minute of that little guy and thanking God for the peace they saw in me.  It was such an awesome feeling, not sure I can explain it in words.

Work, well nevermind.  I am trying to accept that not everyone “gives a crap” and I can’t worry about that.  I only have control over me.

My husband deserves a medal.  My work schedule is getting on his nerve, but he’s picking up “my slack” and complaining as little as possible.

Big Brother 10, less and less a fan of Jerry. 

Remember that obsession, well still obsessed.  Greta will be on at 10 p.m. and I will watch and learn nothing new.  Keep praying for Caylee.  I have prayed so much about this case that I feel God telling me as much as I like to write, get to writing.  I will share my first letter to Ms. Anthony when it is complete.  If you feel lead, join me. 

Mailing Address

Casey Marie Anthony

F-DORML-14
P.O. Box 4970
Orlando, FL 32802-4970

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAYLEE MARIE

When Carl woke up today he said, “Today is Caylee’s birthday.”  It made me realize how many articles and blogs I’ve read out loud to him.  I thought about all the Fox News, Nancy Grace and Greta shows we’ve watched about this little girl, but importantly it made me think about her mother. 

I look at pictures of Casey and Caylee and I know in my heart she loved this little girl.  What happened?  I believe in prayer and I am going to pray like no other for God to soften this mom’s heart and wrap his arms around her and whisper in her ear for her to tell the truth. 

Caylee should be home today with her family celebrating and I can’t imagine what it is like for the Anthony’s not to have her there with them.  Very sad!!  George lost it last night with the media and I say good for him.  Here is a video.

I have to believe she refused a visit from her brother because she can’t stand to face him.  Lots of information in this article.

Looking at Lee today I see the pain for his mom and it breaks my heart.  I give this family credit for sticking together, they obviously love e ach other and not every family has that I hope they find some peace today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAYLEE!!!!

EDIT:  I HAVE BEEN SO SAD AND ANGRY ABOUT THIS STORY IT WAS REFRESHING TO SEE A REAL MOTHER DOING WHAT’S RIGHT FOR HER CHILD….READ HERE